Day 19 – HIT the wall last night.

It’s all about accountability, and I’m owning up to this on my blog.  I fell off the 30 day plan last night.   I know I was rocking it so good for 18 days.   🙂   so why?    Well I decided to take a deep breathe, prepare for today (friday – april fools day) and what is ahead this morning.  Let’s not talk about that quite yet, I’ll wait til I get out of that ordeal.  but for now..  I leave you with this thought..  I wonder if the song writer was thinking about HOPS when he wrote this song…

Hooked on a Feeling

I can’t stop this feeling
Deep inside of me
Girl, you just don’t realize
What you do to me
When you hold me
In your arms so tight
You let me know
Everything’s alright

HILLY

Happy Easter and a new holiday tradition

Day 14 began with an early wake up and pack the truck up for a morning of Paddle Boarding.  (SUP).   First off was to hit Uppers (Upper Lake Clementine) and here’s what I saw..

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YEPP!  closed til April, I don’t give up, so off to lowers to at least get in the water.  I setup the gopros and this was the view as I put the board into the water.   It was like glass!   Only a small fishing boat was out on the water and it was so smooth.  I paddled to the “ROCK” and back, there were a lot of logs – be careful out there.

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After an hour or so of SUP I thought it would be fun to stop at the highest bridge in california.  (really? )  yes really.

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The only thing that I found disappointing was this…   I decided not to look up the stats, but I found this sign very disappointing.  Life is such a precious thing.

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I decided to get espresso at the local starbucks in Auburn and finish reading “The Art of Communication” by THN.   Then onto the next stop, I decided to take folsom-auburn road all the way to folsom lake and hit my favorite dotton’s point (captured in earlier blogs).    One thing that this 30 day challenge was for is transformation and I can proudly say that today I felt it.  I had two different wet suits on today and they fit better than they have ever fit.  I’m very happy w/ the results so far.   Onward to more transformation.

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Now back to the main thread here, every holiday I’ve decided i’m going to paddle board in the morning to celebrate being alive, being active, and being me.

Not much to talk about on the 30 day challenge today….  so maybe tomorrow I’ll pick up more..

HILLY

 

 

Day 13 – Who am I?

Hi..  My name is Josh!  (okay, that’s done).  Yah right.   Not even close.   But first, let’s talk about what is going on with my blog here.   I stared this journey to talk about the water, sports and keep it sporty, fun and just recreational.   However, w/ this latest 30 day challenge there has been a major shift.  Yes I know.   I have decided that since I own it, I can do whatever I like, so I’m going to be mixing it up between water activities and life lessons for me overall.      So let’s jump into the question at hand..  “Who am I?”

 

Here are the things that I think I am.   Infectiously passionate, rapid dreamer, chemistry maker, dot connector, hopeless romantic, non-possession care’r, Lego influencer, espresso aficionado, shot-glass ½ full’r, caring heart, bold idea’r, …   (this is just a start..  )

 

What matters to me?

  • I love my kids
  • I love my family
  • I love my career and the awesome folks that I am privileged to work with
  • I care about the world, environment.
  • I believe in “do unto others what you want done unto you”
  • I believe in Karma
  • I do not give up, unless you put my family at risk, then it’s “0’s” and “1’s” and yes I do think that way at times
  • I pick my vehicle based on what activities I want to do and what I need to enable that vs. caring about what it is

 

I feel I could go on for days, but yet I’ll try to curb this for tonight and end with this..    Who wants to go SUP’ing with me?   I’m headed out tomorrow to have a morning easter paddle and enjoy nature.  I can’t wait to listen to the birds, the wind, water and the paddle gracefully gliding through the water as I move.    Get outside, there’s so much to see.

 

HILLY

Where did day 11 & 12 go?

Howdy all!   I can’t believe I missed day 11 & 12.  Where did the time go?   Well, the last two days were so busy in work & at home that I couldn’t even find the time to write (that’s no excuse, but the reality).   With that being said, today is all about catch up and I have a meaty blog to write for Day 13.  Uh oh – what does that mean?

Last two days twitter version…   5 4 3 2 1…

  • Worked out – yes
  • Drank water – yes, but not enough
  • Beer – what is that? walked right by and said NO
  • gym – yes, but not enough
  • food – nailed it!
  • Water – – well..  it’s all about sunday morning now..   getting WET..

Okay..  done..  a little over 140 characters, but you get the jist….

Now, your probably thinking.. what about day 13 brah..  well.  it will have to wait til later today and maybe even tonight..  but the question I will be focused on is.. “Who am I?”.

HILLY

Skeletons in the closet – the start of day 9

Good morning all.  Welcome to day 9 (for me)!

I started this morning looking at my closet as I got out of bed and realized it’s just not done yet.   So let’s rewind this for a moment, I just recently moved and when my clothes moved from old to new homes they just got shoved into the closet w/ no order, no pattern, no reason just to get them hung back up.  I spent a few days trying to find things in the closet to wear to work, gym, store, etc.   I made a few attempts to organize it, but it was not clear to me what I really wanted and where I wanted things to be.   I became frustrated, convinced that I didn’t even know what I wanted where.  I thought how could this be, I have slight OCD, so really. WTH?   Well,  I finally just took a few days and said I’m not dealing with this, I’m not going to think about it, dwell on it, or even try to process it.   During that time of letting go the picture was clear, the organization I wanted made sense, and then like a strike of lightning I started to put the pieces together.   While I’m not done organizing yet, the strategy is defined, the shoes are in their place and dang it looks good.   Sooo..   what does all this mean?  Well, you have to step back from your current drama, trauma, life for a moment to see clearer on what is needed – what you want – how it will work out and trust in yourself more than anything that to be comfortable with being uncomfortable is okay!

Am I clear on what I want right now? no way.  but I am being comfortable with being uncomfortable, listening more, reading more and bringing new people into my life that can help me grow as a person.    One thing that I do know today, right now, this moment is that life is too short to dwell on the past, to think of your past as a unorganized closet of memories, in time it will all come together to show you the pattern, the reason for being, the method to lifes madness will be apparent.

Let’s get back to the day 9 program.   Yesterday my youngest asked to join me during my workout and I am glad he did.   He spent the time on the treadmill, light lifting activity and was there to experience the “GYM”.  I’m so glad he did, inclusion is important and not just in work, but in all aspects of life, to be a part of something, to be feel included it is a human need to be valued.     Also remember to treat others as you would like to be treated, for it will come back around – KARMA will ensure of that.  Here’s my daily reminder, written in ink for me to see, think, remember and do on a daily basis.

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Welcome to Tuesday.. Let’s rock this!

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Thank you Dad for sending me this early (super early) this morning, glad my phone was on silent.

HILLY

 

No Pain, No Gain – Day 8

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No Pain, No Gain.   Welcome to Monday, Day 8.   My oldest son made this for me in wood shop while he was in high school and I still use to this day.  It sits on my bathroom counter as a reminder.  If you don’t go through the pain, there is no gain.  Whether that be in working out, nutrition, relationships, finances, etc..

I have the next few days off to have some time with my kids for spring break and as I was waiting for them to arrive I spent the morning going through about 2 feet of paperwork from the past, in search of tax documents that I need from the last few years.   With each new paper it represented thoughts, feelings and emotions.  I found a picture my daughter drew for me from ~ 5 years ago with a surfboard in between us and it was so awesome, I was filled with happiness for great times from the past, then I found prior wedding photos that brought much pain and a few tears.   Then I finally found a few of the documents that I needed, therefore the search was good.   However, as I was going through the entire stack it was like peeling the onion of the last 6 years of everything, from receipts, statements, house paperwork, vacations, pictures, etc..        So what do you do with a stack that big of paper?

  1.  You organize it (hello OCD)
  2. You shred what you don’t need (almost all of it)
  3. You then get stacks that need to be filed away, some that needs to get mailed to the prior and a stack for the accountant
  4. Then you take all that shredded material and THROW IT AWAY!  Like a PURGE, like a way to say..    It’s a new chapter..   TIME to MOVE forward!

Oh yah.  last night went to see “DEAD POOL” the movie, definitely not kid friendly, but it was awesome, the humor, action, characters and overall was a A+.    Plus was able to spent time with AR (High school friend) and swap stories of our roads behind us.   Overall great night and much needed to escape from the day to day stress for a few hours.

Double Oh yah – went for a trail walk in Fair oaks, ran bridge to bridge (not that far), but then had a somewhat interesting lunch at Sunflower inn in fair oaks.  I should have risk took more on my food, but I had nachos and it was pretty good.  Looking forward to trying a nut burger when I’m not that hungry (bahahaha).   Then of course to finish out a good break from my days list of to-do’s I went to Trader Joe’s to stock up on food.   Lots of great ideas there for food planning and now I have a full week of meals ready to go.    #EatHealthier or at least try..   🙂

Okay..   I hear the wind outside, think it’s time to keep practicing the kite flying, I hope in the next 1-2 months I can get my ocean kite, rig & board and really take the dive into Kite Surfing.   But for today, it’s more land flying and learning..

GET OUT THERE!   Make a difference in somebody’s life.

HILLY

Day 7 – One Week – Beach Day – Introspective

As the week comes to a close, I can say that it has been a challenging first week.   This week was no short on drama & trauma to make me want some hops, but yet I resisted and feeling great today.      However, before we get into detail on my observations, realizations, etc..  let’s talk about Saturday (day 6).

Yesterday I took a road trip to the coast to look for waves, wind and water.    I loaded the truck up with all the gear (paddle board, longboard, kite, wet suits, gear) and headed straight to …  “Starbucks”.  LOL  yup..  had to get some coffee first .      IMG_2805

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now that the truck was packed, fueled up, it was time to hit the first stop “Pacifica, CA”, which is south of Ocean beach (SF).   The city has done a great job of putting in new parking on both sides of taco bell and the $$’s to park was inexpensive for the day.   After taking a few moments to gauge the waves it was clear – The water was packed with surfers and the waves were just closing out w/ little right or lefts to speak of.  Yah there was a moment 3-5 seconds of a right or left, but nothing to good.   Instead of bolting right away I took a spot in the sand and let my feet connect with the earth.  My old buddy scotty would say I was grounding out my positive electrons w/ the earth and I think he was right.

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After about an h our or so, I thought it best to move on south bound to see what I could find.  The coffee had worn off, my appetite was growing and I knew the road ahead was only a few stops until Santa Cruz.   I took to the road, playing twenty one pilots and enjoying a “tear in my heart” and “Stressed out”, along with a few of their prior album.   (big  note to self:  need to create a few more road CDs vs. playing from phone w/ a 2′ audio cable).   The traffic was light, the scenery was amazing and the peaceful hum of the road was exactly what I needed.  I passed through a few towns, a few breweries and just kept on trucking (no use in stopping in a brewery on my challenge to play with my brain).

I then remembered a great beach I had stopped at back in August, where the kite surfers went to on a windy day.   I pulled off the road, it was empty, but the wind was dead and there was no action in the water.  So. what do you do?  well I pulled out my chair and enjoyed the beautiful view (panoramic view below).   What an amazing view, the salt in the air, fresh, just powerful.   At this point I realized I should have brought some food & more water with me.

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So much for relaxing, phone was getting blown up (next time I’m shutting it off) and I was noticeably hungry.  I hit the road again – now with a mission – FIND FOOD!  Not a brewery, not a hole in the wall (per say), but something I know will satisfy my hunger.   Of course I hit SC, hit 41st streeet and then boom ” Betty’s burgers” of course!   I think the accurate word here would be devour, because that burger had no chance of surviving.   Great food and it was a bit busy, but who cares the wait was worth it.  The coma started to kick in, I hit the beach again, looking for more waves & wind..   No such luck.  So.. at this point I was determined to get out of Santa Cruz before the traffic hit (yup.. no such luck).   but it’s okay..  time spent out of town is time out of town.

Oh, forgot to mention this earlier.   (yes my blogs have no structure).  I supported my new shirt from KB and it truly sums up my life.  Transcend the bullsh&&!

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Let’s shift back to day 7, overall the day while not getting in the water as much as I desired, it was beneficial for the soul.   I spent many hours of windshield time thinking about the journey I am on, what’s on my mind and how I can help to close out on items that need closure this year.   I also had that moment where one word stuck with me all day and it made me realize that if you don’t let go of the past, you will never move forward, you will repeat the lesson again and again and again.     let me explain..  When i was in college I had the opportunity to live with my families best friends in SoCal, I started to get back into surfing since proximity was awesome and I wasn’t a good listener.   I knew what periling meant, I knew when to paddle, how to paddle, how to pop up, turn, walk the board, etc.. but I didn’t listen to my coach.   I went out alone in all kinds of seas (smooth, rough, storm, etc) and I kept getting my butt handed to me.  I tried harder, I paddled harder, I changed my wet suit, I tried new wax, I tried a different leash.. still here’s your a&& on a platter bro.   I then started to listen to my coach, I got smarter at finding the riptide, finding the alley way to get out to the outside, I learned how to drop in and bottom turn the right way.  I moved my weight distribution to the right place on the board and then it all happened.   One glorious day in San Onofre at Old Mans I did an EPIC drop in on a 5′ wave, did a bottom turn and then flew off the top of the wave and I FLEW.. I flew through the air like a bird and it was amazing..    My coach asked me – why didn’t you just ride the wave in.. I commented back i wanted to feel that complete success of dropping, turning and soaring..  (of course it was a joke for the day on me).    So..  back to the point.   You need to listen to what your brain is saying, listen to your coaches, listen to what is really going on around you w/o the noise and this is when the word hit me.     Your probably wondering – okay what’s the word brah..  well, I have to say that I can’t really share it.  it’s for me and now that I know it, it will help me move forward.   Clarity is good, learning is good, listening is good, life is good!

Okay.. so Day 7. – (yes thanks for hanging with me this far).    I want to leave you with this one.   I was preparing for a meal at my new home last night and I was in a hunt for forks, yah forks and this is what I found in my drawer.

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I have 8 random forks, no pairs, no matches and this is very symbolic of my journey right now.  I have a drawer full of rebel forks that I have accumulated over the last 6 years, so let this wild journey continue of collecting rebel forks to make this life EPIC!

& what about observations?

  • Keep drinking water, work out 45 mins a day (period), be realistic in your daily intake and above all, embrace life….

HILLY

Day 4 – OMG

Well, welcome to 4/30th completed and looks like the foot will not get off the pedal right now.   I’ve come to the realization that HOPS were invented for parents doing homework with their children when they are dog a&& tired and out of patience for their parent.  Oh yah, let’s do some division with decimals on top of that.

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So..   staying strong, onward forward..

Day 3 – Slept better – yes, but first coffee

What a great morning so far!   Able to get up, take my son to school and then hit the gym before meetings.   I can feel the metal brace in my arm when I was doing tricep work today and it was good overall, the muscle is recovering and I can feel my strength returning.     I started to reflect on why I slept better last night and here were my observations:

  • No food after 7:30pm
  • Water before bed
  • Melatonin – just a single dose
  • Girish on the sonos
  • plus finally figuring out to deflect the light from outside (yah that was fun)

Here’s to day 3..   no headache yet.. but I know it’s coming..    trying to hydrate, prepare for it..