Unpacking sucks!

You know the feeling when you are moving into a new home and you start to unpack your boxes.  You try to figure out where everything goes, how will use it, when will you use it, will you ever use it again?   You go one box at a time and it feels daunting and makes you want to take breaks as you are going to ensure you are breathing, staying fed and also getting ready for whatever is ahead (work, play, etc..) .     Nothing like opening a box you forgot you packed of old mementos, crazy one off items, and memories that you forgot you had.   Getting back to unpacking, you open your pantry, drawers, cabinets and start to put things away (of course after cleaning the shelves, lining them, etc..), you take a moment to look at how the dishes all fit nicely in place, how there’s a pattern to it all and for that very moment it all makes sense, even though it’s just unpacking you have a mental breakthrough, you start to get it.    You stop, breathe and say “wow” so that’s what it is, that’s why it all fits, that’s why I kept those items.    So.. am I moving?  Nope (not yet), but what is the deal w/ this unpacking theme then?

Well.    Your brain & heart are just like a home, I have recently unpacked more of my feelings, my emotions, my thoughts and had a few “wow” moments as I was going through it.  I didn’t expect to have this “unpacking” happen, but I’m certainly glad now that I did.   I appreciate the catalyst to this move more than that person knows, but I’m sure they will.    So now that I start to understand the unpacking I can start to put the pieces in place to reflect, understand and grow as I move forward.

Would I like to share out my flow charts of feelings, experiences that make me who I am?   Yes, but not really, it’s who I am and is very close to my chest.   So..  yah..

Thank you.     HILLY

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Look Inside. remember your North Star

This last week I was asked for my latest tattoo and I quickly said my compass rose.   Then I took a moment to reflect on why I got this tattoo and why it is important to me.  I spent many years seeing things that would challenge me on my values, my perspectives and moral compass.  I always took a breath and focused on what I know is right for my me, my family and for what I’m going through.    I know it hurt a lot to go through these transitions, but it was necessary to get here today.    Without an epic journey, life would not be the same (epic), it would be sterile, non feeling, lame, etc..  so I think my journey will be one to capture for a great novel, a great journey that are made for paper books.

Let’s shift.   Onto peace inside.   Knowing your north star is important, it helps when you feel beat down, weak, full of emotion to remember what you stand for, what it is that propels you into the morning so you can crush your next day.  I have to say that knowing my internal peace remains a challenge for me, making sure I remember how to center and get back to “60” is so important for me.   I have so much energy, passion, love and feelings that I have to be very aware of how that exits my body.   I was reminded this week of this very thing and while it was a good reminder, I had to take a moment and really think about how am I focused on hearing my internal peace, how am I knowing when I am centered so I can achieve and show up the way I want to.   I wonder how people can go their whole life without knowing how to center.. I just can’t imagine, but that’s not my quest to solve. Mine is right here, right now, right in front of me.    Making sure that I live a life of “Center” and that I know what I stand for.

Shift again?  sure why not..  My mind is shifting all over the place.   last week I was out at the beach and I one regret is that I didn’t just let GO and really feel the experience for what it was worth.. Meaning listening to the waves, walking in the sand, watching the waves come in..   I do regret not bringing my surfboard as well, but I”ll fix that.   getting back.. I didn’t  RELAX and really be there and for that I know I need to try it again.   I need to get back to CENTER, but also pull from 120 back to 60 to see how it positively impacts my day to day, my influence and my overall well being.  (welcome to my personal mega goal).

Shift again?   yup..    2017 was to be a major milestone year and it is not even finished yet.  I am looking forward to all the milestones, what it will bring and I need to be better about celebrating them with the right activity to ensure that I remember what an epic journey this has been.    Here’s to the next few months of major milestones and keeping myself grounded as I proceed forward through them.    #Onward

That’s it for this post, tonight, etc..   I hope you find your peace, love your journey and who knows what the future will hold so keep breathing, be resilient and make sure you take care of your brain, heart, soul, health, peace, karma, faith, etc..      I love you!

HILLY

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Center.   Returning to it. 

I found myself this week with down from too many inputs and negativity around me.  It’s hard to not get wrapped up in the crap that comes at you but yet it happens.    I had to take a step and decided to take a FB break for awhile and just focus on what I need and want.   But not just a selfish quest but one of returning to center, returning to 40 not 120 mph so that I can be a leader for my kids.    Yah I fall down but sure as shtt I get up and kick some butt.   

Today I feel it was all about getting up! Getting both feet under me and then prepare to find center.    I’m glad I’m not done learning but dang it hurts when you grow.  Kinda like a monster workout.      I was pleasantly surprised I’m down 9lbs in the last month (not sure how that happened).   Hopefully that trend continues.   :).   

This can’t all be wha wha.   So I’ll shift.  I’m stoked my kids are all amazing humans , I have my key friends around me that I love and I’m stoked about the next 6 years preparing for the next big chapter.     

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Do Good, It Matters!

I think this title does it’s own justice.   Do Good, It Matters!.   I don’t care where you are in your life, economic status, life status, etc..  do good.   be nice, be kind, forgive and look for the positive in everything.    It does matter.  If you have a clear conscience it matters.  You will live longer, happier and just be at peace.

Do Good, It Matters!

-HILLY

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Finding your way – how to achieve Z axis goals in a X & Y world.

Changed up the format a bit to audio & video for this post.   I hope you enjoy.  – HILLY

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Patience – where did this word come from?

Origin:  From the English word patience, ultimately from Latin patientia, a derivative of pati “to suffer”. This was one of the virtue names coined by the Puritans in the 17th century.

Definition:  the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.

As I ponder today more about patience, I think about how all good things come when you have patience.  But this words is like a thorn in my side at times, I sit there saying “come on, Hurry up already”, and I ask Karma to hurry up already as well.  Come on, why do I have to wait.   BUT YET..  that is not what it is all about.   To me, patience is about slowing your roll, taking the time required to think thru everything, be present, feel what needs to be felt.   Is this rough, tough, hard, etc.. heck yah.  I continue to be irritated at how slow things go, but yet in the end the wait is worth it.

So…. why am I spending time today to talk about patience?    I am writing today to help remind myself that I need to have more patience.  I need to breathe and continue to find center, know my North Point and keep my focus & priorities in check.  I don’t feel I have failed on those fronts, but I know that I need to keep my focus & priorities in check always.

A few weeks back I felt very inspired to write a blog about my journey, I recorded on audio to then write later, well after I listened to it a few times I couldn’t get myself to write it down, it was so raw, deep and honestly painful that I had to take a few moments to even write it.   I was not happy that I couldn’t hurry up and write it, post it and share, however my saving grace was patience, I need more time to write it, more time to digest my words and then to be able to share that is another step.  In this case patience was what I needed and I get it now.   So when I ask to speed up things @ work or in personal life I get it more than ever that patience is what I need.

I will enjoy these moments to be present, accept patience and learn to grow daily.

In Other news, who’s excited about the sharks not biting so we can get back to surfing?  ME!

HILLY

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Match Me!

I sat on this post since October ’16.  Decided to finally just post..      Short, right to the point!

In the words of my coach this last month, she said that you will find somebody that can match you.   Match me in how I think, my deep conversations, my passions and my zeal for life.  – That’s it!

  • HILLY

 

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Camp. Learn. Relax.

Well, let’s start this with blog with a watch for the yellow hazard poles (because they bite).    After my first night out at the campground, here is the report out.

Trip Notes – Here are my lessons

  1. Watch for cones (because that one time in the grocery store parking lot – when that yellow cone jumped out and bent my axle – yah.. the trailer is now used)
  2. Learn to back up – or at least calm down (oh yah.. it’s great when there are a few folks waiting at the storage place watching your every move)
  3. Make sure to turn on water – yah, I turned it on, but then tried to put in the regulator, and then forgot to turn it back on.. so yah.. used all of my own water during the trip
  4. Get better chairs (like the zero gravity ones).  my REI chairs are great for a baseball game, but not for chilling at the campground
  5. Turn off the Battery & Gas upon parking (think it’s time for an easy checklist to have in the lower storage section)
  6. Stretch before you go to bed (dude.. i’m old.  heck no I’m not..  but still stretching is good).
  7. My friend John’s camping tips helped (blocks for leveling, level placement)
  8. Plan food better (don’t forget your diner in the fridge)
  9. Need more organization in the cabinets (Oh yah.. went that yellow cone was bumped all the cabinets opened up.. ala SH&& SHow).
  10. Need a rug on the floor inside beyond the entry mat
  11. Trash bags (totally missed that) – I kept making trips to the trash can

Now for backing up into the camp site, it was two attempts for success, but it took 30 minute to get into my spot at storage.  I am now convinced that backing up is my lesson to be learned.  I will not give up, I will just keeping trying….

 

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The infamous #2 Pencil – reaching deep on this one.

A few weeks back I was walking to my Monday class (Mindfulness) and I ran into another student with my journal & a PENCIL in my hand.  She looked at what I had in my hand and said “Oh.. you’ve got commitment issues I see. ”   At first I laughed hard and thought whatever, but then I took an informal NON-random survey, basically anybody I walked by in the hall, at lunch, at dinner, in the office and here’s what I heard.

these are completely unofficial, non-random, no science to back this up & completely recreational stats.. so don’t quote me..

  • 100% stated w/o major prompting that a pencil = commitment issues
  • 1 individual said they didn’t like how a pencil sounds on paper
  • 1 individual asked what type of pencil

So, what did I think this all meant?  Well, my boss gave me a bottle of correction ink w/ a pen (boom!).   I thought it was hilarious, i mean seriously who thinks that much about a writing instrument before they run out of their office?

So I decided to empty out my bag and here it what was inside of it..

So yah..   I have so many different types of pens/pencils based on what I’m doing.  journaling, financial planning, work planning, big thoughts, goals, pro’s & con’s lists.  etc..

Why would I spend anytime on this topic?  I thought it was funny AF to reflect on how a simple writing instruments has so much attached to it with people.   Next time I go to the training I’m bringing a big a&& #2 PENCIL like the coin bank type..   Because it’s getting real.   LOL>

Research notes:  I searched google, found a few articles, but nothing with a direct correlation with scientific evidence.   I also found a lot of cool # 2 pencil shirts, but that’s just to crazy to wear to work..

And as for commitment – I heard all these tattoos I have are washable w/  the right soap.. is that true?   oh snap..

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What IF – the curse of a planner.

What a great way to start a post..  What IF…    I don’t know about you, but I realize more than ever that I focus to much on “What IF” vs. “noticing what is NOW”.   In this weeks meditation class we talked about noticing what is now and recognizing it for what it is.  Meaning this moment is now, look to what is now, feel the moment and let it be vs. “over-thinking” vs. applying a judgement, a filter, a lens on it.   As I was preparing to journal this week I thought a lot about What IF and how much time I spend on extrapolating a given conversation, milestone, task, etc..   I spend too much time on this and it ruins so much, whether new friendships, relationships, good moments, etc..

So..  I challenge myself to stop thinking about “What IF” and taking it scenario planning vs. just enjoying what is NOW.  It’s an experience, just enjoy it, stop over thinking it, relish in that moment for that moment is where I am vs. whatever else is ahead.

How does this apply to my work? life? camping? relationships?   well, I will embrace each as a moment, to embrace as they come and try my hardest to not over think.     What do you think?  do you spend too much time over thinking? what if planning? or do you just live in the moment?

  • HILLY
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